Being Back

It feels freaking fantastic to be back at school. Today is my first day back, but I don't feel right yet because my best friend/twin doesn't get back until late tonight. But I'm surprising her at the airport!

Sleeping was no fun last night. Bethany and I switched beds so now I'm up on the top bunk. Don't ask me how I got through 6 years of summer camp without ever having to sleep up top, but I somehow managed it. It's kinda sad that it was such a frightening experience. I kept waking up in fear that I'd fall out. But I think I'll get over that fear pretty quickly.

After I finally got up, Becca, Max, and I checked-in at the Student Center and then went to brave the d-hall together. The food actually wasn't half-bad (knock on wood), but that's probably because none of us attempted the hot food line. We stayed in the d-hall for a while catching up until the smell food started to get to us. On our way out we ran into Mattheus, Bret, and Nicholas for the first time since I've been back. I think we're all hanging out tomorrow. And we're going to the Ville to play laser tag Monday.

Now I'm going downstairs to welcome Ames back and see what everyone is up to. I can't wait to see the look on Jill's face when I show up with Lauren at the aeroport!!

Things that irk me:
Sh** cell phone service

Things that make me smile:
German boys (especially ones named Pascal)

Secrets, Secrets

Are no fun. Secrets, secrets hurt someone....

Except when I'm the only one who gets to know. And when it makes me feel special to be trusted.

Things that irk me:
Unexpected drama

Things that make me smile:
Resolved drama

Both of those things have happened in the past hour.

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Hello school, how have you been?

Well, I'm officially moved in again and am waiting for Nikki and Nicholas to get back from Target so we can hang out. It's definitely nice to be back, but it'll take some getting used to. I forgot how small my closet was and how organized I have to be to keep everything together. I'm excited for everyone to get back tomorrow. A month is wayyy too long without my new best friends/twin. Classes start again on Wednesday and I think this semester will be pretty easy. The only thing I'm definitely NOT looking forward to is speech. Anyone that has ever had a class with me understands how much public speaking frightens me. If I don't have every single word written out I freeze up and forget what to say. The only time I didn't freeze up was when I was giving my senior speech at the band awards, but that was because I was speaking from my heart about something I truly knew. Let's just hope my professor is lenient with the grades.

I think I'm going to add this next section to every blog I write.... and I'll put a couple new things down each time.

Things that irk (to make weary, irritated, or bored
synonyms: annoy) me:
Awkward combination of people, especially boys
Drunken late night texts/phone calls

I absolutely hate when people change plans around without telling me about it. And then I feel terrible when someone gets left out because of all the stupidity. Tonight has just really reaffirmed my desire to be back at school.

If you don't include today, my past few days have been pretty good. Although it's been below freezing for wayyy too long!! I live in Florida for a reason, because I HATE the cold, gray skies of winter. All they make you want to do is sleep and eat.

But let's see... the past few days I went shopping with Kelly, went to a soccer with William and Van, made gingerbread houses with Juan, Bryan, and Kelly, helped teach preschool and aftercare, babysat, took super long naps, had a disc gun war with Bryan, Kelly, and Kavita, ate at McDonald's four times in three days..yikes... once with Kelly, once with William, once with Juan, and once with Mom, and went to that new taco place Quillen's (which was pretty good, but not great).

The only thing I want to do before I leave for school is spend some more time with my boys. And I believe that will be accomplished tomorrow at Carty's birthday.

Crazy.....

Today I began to wonder what I sound like to my readers. And I realized that I probably sound like a total nutcase, which I admittedly am. Sometimes I do and say crazy things, but it's all just because I'm trying to find myself. So, I promise, I don't belong in a mental facility nor am I on medication. I'm just an average girl using this blog to get out my emotions that would otherwise remain bottled up.


The past several days have been quite pleasant.
I've gotten to hang out with my babies, who are all getting cuter and cuter by the second.
I had a sleepover with my mommy, because we're weird like that.
I "helped" Mausam pack up for college.
I watched some HILARIOUS Indian Youtube videos.
I went to "frisbee", which turned out to be "let's all sit around in a circle and talk" time. During which I began to fix things with an old friend.
I continued talking to that friend in the days following frisbee and think that everything is finally good again.
I spent some quality time with mi familia.

And tomorrow, Kelly and I are going shopping.

2010 is already a zillion times better than 2009 ever was. And I'm really hoping it stays that way.

Faith, Trust, and a little Pixie Dust

It takes those three things and a little strength for a girl to finally realize that not everyone can read your mind. There is no such thing as Edward Cullen. No one can tell exactly what you're thinking or why you're mad at them without you spelling it out for them. It takes strength to ask a question, trust in yourself to know you'll be okay no matter what, faith in God that He'll lead you the right way, and pixie dust for good measure. It took all four of those for us to speak. To finally fix things. And to realize what will and will not happen this time. I'm trusting you, so please don't let me down. I'm happy again. Happy that we're friends. Let's try to keep it that way. Thanks.

Most of my friends have already gone back to college/high school. So I'll be spending my days alone. But I get to go home in 5 days and I couldn't be happier. Especially since I'll be going back happy.

2010 has gotten a wonderful start.


Note to self: Invest in some makeup remover. This "waterproof" mascara makes me look like I have a black eye after I shower.

Happy Birthday Blog!!!

It's my blog's first birthday today. A spur of the moment creation has turned into my lifeline this past year. I never would have imagined how much this blog has helped me get through. It helps me stay in touch with friends and family, and it also helps me say things I've always wanted to say. Thank you blog for the past 365 days. And may we be together another 365.


Now that Christmas Break is almost over, I'm ready to go home. To the place where my best friend, Jill, understands my obsessions.

Where Becca will sit and have late night heart-to-hearts because she's been where I am.

Where Amy knows exactly what to say... and when she should be like a Grandma...

Where Nikki and Lauren are there to laugh.

Where Max can tell with one look exactly what I need him to do... walk, talk, text, make everyone leave me alone, let me go to bed, take us to Steak N Shake...

Where Nicholas, Bret, and Dakota know how to make me laugh so hard that I can't get food into my mouth.

College is a weird thing. It's a time full of change. I can feel my friends changing. My high school friends are drifting away, not all of them, but a lot of them. We're all changing into the people we want to be for the rest of our lives. In high school, I never felt like I was on the outside looking in. But in college I somehow feel more accepted. People are different there. And I definitely can't wait to go back. There's less drama and I like it.

Only one more week!!