REBECCA ROSENBERG!

Hi.... I love you. (Teehee...I had to do that. The next thing has nothing to do with Becca)

I'm pretty sure I deserve an apology. I don't care if it wasn't a "boozefest." I care that you don't understand why I didn't stop by to say bye. I care that you don't think you owe me an apology. I guess I really shouldn't be surprised. This isn't anything new.

Sorry, I had to get that out.

I'm definitely glad to be back with my friends. I know I've said that quite a few times already, but it's true. Classes start tomorrow and I can't wait to start learning more about education. It'll be loads of fun.

Things that irk me:
People that don't give second chances.
How I can't help but give out third, and fourth, and tenth chances.

Things that make me smile:
My friends here.

Being Back

It feels freaking fantastic to be back at school. Today is my first day back, but I don't feel right yet because my best friend/twin doesn't get back until late tonight. But I'm surprising her at the airport!

Sleeping was no fun last night. Bethany and I switched beds so now I'm up on the top bunk. Don't ask me how I got through 6 years of summer camp without ever having to sleep up top, but I somehow managed it. It's kinda sad that it was such a frightening experience. I kept waking up in fear that I'd fall out. But I think I'll get over that fear pretty quickly.

After I finally got up, Becca, Max, and I checked-in at the Student Center and then went to brave the d-hall together. The food actually wasn't half-bad (knock on wood), but that's probably because none of us attempted the hot food line. We stayed in the d-hall for a while catching up until the smell food started to get to us. On our way out we ran into Mattheus, Bret, and Nicholas for the first time since I've been back. I think we're all hanging out tomorrow. And we're going to the Ville to play laser tag Monday.

Now I'm going downstairs to welcome Ames back and see what everyone is up to. I can't wait to see the look on Jill's face when I show up with Lauren at the aeroport!!

Things that irk me:
Sh** cell phone service

Things that make me smile:
German boys (especially ones named Pascal)

Secrets, Secrets

Are no fun. Secrets, secrets hurt someone....

Except when I'm the only one who gets to know. And when it makes me feel special to be trusted.

Things that irk me:
Unexpected drama

Things that make me smile:
Resolved drama

Both of those things have happened in the past hour.

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Hello school, how have you been?

Well, I'm officially moved in again and am waiting for Nikki and Nicholas to get back from Target so we can hang out. It's definitely nice to be back, but it'll take some getting used to. I forgot how small my closet was and how organized I have to be to keep everything together. I'm excited for everyone to get back tomorrow. A month is wayyy too long without my new best friends/twin. Classes start again on Wednesday and I think this semester will be pretty easy. The only thing I'm definitely NOT looking forward to is speech. Anyone that has ever had a class with me understands how much public speaking frightens me. If I don't have every single word written out I freeze up and forget what to say. The only time I didn't freeze up was when I was giving my senior speech at the band awards, but that was because I was speaking from my heart about something I truly knew. Let's just hope my professor is lenient with the grades.

I think I'm going to add this next section to every blog I write.... and I'll put a couple new things down each time.

Things that irk (to make weary, irritated, or bored
synonyms: annoy) me:
Awkward combination of people, especially boys
Drunken late night texts/phone calls

I absolutely hate when people change plans around without telling me about it. And then I feel terrible when someone gets left out because of all the stupidity. Tonight has just really reaffirmed my desire to be back at school.

If you don't include today, my past few days have been pretty good. Although it's been below freezing for wayyy too long!! I live in Florida for a reason, because I HATE the cold, gray skies of winter. All they make you want to do is sleep and eat.

But let's see... the past few days I went shopping with Kelly, went to a soccer with William and Van, made gingerbread houses with Juan, Bryan, and Kelly, helped teach preschool and aftercare, babysat, took super long naps, had a disc gun war with Bryan, Kelly, and Kavita, ate at McDonald's four times in three days..yikes... once with Kelly, once with William, once with Juan, and once with Mom, and went to that new taco place Quillen's (which was pretty good, but not great).

The only thing I want to do before I leave for school is spend some more time with my boys. And I believe that will be accomplished tomorrow at Carty's birthday.

Crazy.....

Today I began to wonder what I sound like to my readers. And I realized that I probably sound like a total nutcase, which I admittedly am. Sometimes I do and say crazy things, but it's all just because I'm trying to find myself. So, I promise, I don't belong in a mental facility nor am I on medication. I'm just an average girl using this blog to get out my emotions that would otherwise remain bottled up.


The past several days have been quite pleasant.
I've gotten to hang out with my babies, who are all getting cuter and cuter by the second.
I had a sleepover with my mommy, because we're weird like that.
I "helped" Mausam pack up for college.
I watched some HILARIOUS Indian Youtube videos.
I went to "frisbee", which turned out to be "let's all sit around in a circle and talk" time. During which I began to fix things with an old friend.
I continued talking to that friend in the days following frisbee and think that everything is finally good again.
I spent some quality time with mi familia.

And tomorrow, Kelly and I are going shopping.

2010 is already a zillion times better than 2009 ever was. And I'm really hoping it stays that way.

Faith, Trust, and a little Pixie Dust

It takes those three things and a little strength for a girl to finally realize that not everyone can read your mind. There is no such thing as Edward Cullen. No one can tell exactly what you're thinking or why you're mad at them without you spelling it out for them. It takes strength to ask a question, trust in yourself to know you'll be okay no matter what, faith in God that He'll lead you the right way, and pixie dust for good measure. It took all four of those for us to speak. To finally fix things. And to realize what will and will not happen this time. I'm trusting you, so please don't let me down. I'm happy again. Happy that we're friends. Let's try to keep it that way. Thanks.

Most of my friends have already gone back to college/high school. So I'll be spending my days alone. But I get to go home in 5 days and I couldn't be happier. Especially since I'll be going back happy.

2010 has gotten a wonderful start.


Note to self: Invest in some makeup remover. This "waterproof" mascara makes me look like I have a black eye after I shower.