Well, I'm officially moved in again and am waiting for Nikki and Nicholas to get back from Target so we can hang out. It's definitely nice to be back, but it'll take some getting used to. I forgot how small my closet was and how organized I have to be to keep everything together. I'm excited for everyone to get back tomorrow. A month is wayyy too long without my new best friends/twin. Classes start again on Wednesday and I think this semester will be pretty easy. The only thing I'm definitely NOT looking forward to is speech. Anyone that has ever had a class with me understands how much public speaking frightens me. If I don't have every single word written out I freeze up and forget what to say. The only time I didn't freeze up was when I was giving my senior speech at the band awards, but that was because I was speaking from my heart about something I truly knew. Let's just hope my professor is lenient with the grades.
I think I'm going to add this next section to every blog I write.... and I'll put a couple new things down each time.
Things that irk (to make weary, irritated, or bored
synonyms: annoy) me:
Awkward combination of people, especially boys
Drunken late night texts/phone calls
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
I absolutely hate when people change plans around without telling me about it. And then I feel terrible when someone gets left out because of all the stupidity. Tonight has just really reaffirmed my desire to be back at school.
If you don't include today, my past few days have been pretty good. Although it's been below freezing for wayyy too long!! I live in Florida for a reason, because I HATE the cold, gray skies of winter. All they make you want to do is sleep and eat.
But let's see... the past few days I went shopping with Kelly, went to a soccer with William and Van, made gingerbread houses with Juan, Bryan, and Kelly, helped teach preschool and aftercare, babysat, took super long naps, had a disc gun war with Bryan, Kelly, and Kavita, ate at McDonald's four times in three days..yikes... once with Kelly, once with William, once with Juan, and once with Mom, and went to that new taco place Quillen's (which was pretty good, but not great).
The only thing I want to do before I leave for school is spend some more time with my boys. And I believe that will be accomplished tomorrow at Carty's birthday.
If you don't include today, my past few days have been pretty good. Although it's been below freezing for wayyy too long!! I live in Florida for a reason, because I HATE the cold, gray skies of winter. All they make you want to do is sleep and eat.
But let's see... the past few days I went shopping with Kelly, went to a soccer with William and Van, made gingerbread houses with Juan, Bryan, and Kelly, helped teach preschool and aftercare, babysat, took super long naps, had a disc gun war with Bryan, Kelly, and Kavita, ate at McDonald's four times in three days..yikes... once with Kelly, once with William, once with Juan, and once with Mom, and went to that new taco place Quillen's (which was pretty good, but not great).
The only thing I want to do before I leave for school is spend some more time with my boys. And I believe that will be accomplished tomorrow at Carty's birthday.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Crazy.....
Today I began to wonder what I sound like to my readers. And I realized that I probably sound like a total nutcase, which I admittedly am. Sometimes I do and say crazy things, but it's all just because I'm trying to find myself. So, I promise, I don't belong in a mental facility nor am I on medication. I'm just an average girl using this blog to get out my emotions that would otherwise remain bottled up.
The past several days have been quite pleasant.
I've gotten to hang out with my babies, who are all getting cuter and cuter by the second.
I had a sleepover with my mommy, because we're weird like that.
I "helped" Mausam pack up for college.
I watched some HILARIOUS Indian Youtube videos.
I went to "frisbee", which turned out to be "let's all sit around in a circle and talk" time. During which I began to fix things with an old friend.
I continued talking to that friend in the days following frisbee and think that everything is finally good again.
I spent some quality time with mi familia.
And tomorrow, Kelly and I are going shopping.
2010 is already a zillion times better than 2009 ever was. And I'm really hoping it stays that way.
The past several days have been quite pleasant.
I've gotten to hang out with my babies, who are all getting cuter and cuter by the second.
I had a sleepover with my mommy, because we're weird like that.
I "helped" Mausam pack up for college.
I watched some HILARIOUS Indian Youtube videos.
I went to "frisbee", which turned out to be "let's all sit around in a circle and talk" time. During which I began to fix things with an old friend.
I continued talking to that friend in the days following frisbee and think that everything is finally good again.
I spent some quality time with mi familia.
And tomorrow, Kelly and I are going shopping.
2010 is already a zillion times better than 2009 ever was. And I'm really hoping it stays that way.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Faith, Trust, and a little Pixie Dust
It takes those three things and a little strength for a girl to finally realize that not everyone can read your mind. There is no such thing as Edward Cullen. No one can tell exactly what you're thinking or why you're mad at them without you spelling it out for them. It takes strength to ask a question, trust in yourself to know you'll be okay no matter what, faith in God that He'll lead you the right way, and pixie dust for good measure. It took all four of those for us to speak. To finally fix things. And to realize what will and will not happen this time. I'm trusting you, so please don't let me down. I'm happy again. Happy that we're friends. Let's try to keep it that way. Thanks.
Most of my friends have already gone back to college/high school. So I'll be spending my days alone. But I get to go home in 5 days and I couldn't be happier. Especially since I'll be going back happy.
2010 has gotten a wonderful start.
Note to self: Invest in some makeup remover. This "waterproof" mascara makes me look like I have a black eye after I shower.
Most of my friends have already gone back to college/high school. So I'll be spending my days alone. But I get to go home in 5 days and I couldn't be happier. Especially since I'll be going back happy.
2010 has gotten a wonderful start.
Note to self: Invest in some makeup remover. This "waterproof" mascara makes me look like I have a black eye after I shower.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Happy Birthday Blog!!!
It's my blog's first birthday today. A spur of the moment creation has turned into my lifeline this past year. I never would have imagined how much this blog has helped me get through. It helps me stay in touch with friends and family, and it also helps me say things I've always wanted to say. Thank you blog for the past 365 days. And may we be together another 365.
Now that Christmas Break is almost over, I'm ready to go home. To the place where my best friend, Jill, understands my obsessions.
Where Becca will sit and have late night heart-to-hearts because she's been where I am.
Where Amy knows exactly what to say... and when she should be like a Grandma...
Where Nikki and Lauren are there to laugh.
Where Max can tell with one look exactly what I need him to do... walk, talk, text, make everyone leave me alone, let me go to bed, take us to Steak N Shake...
Where Nicholas, Bret, and Dakota know how to make me laugh so hard that I can't get food into my mouth.
College is a weird thing. It's a time full of change. I can feel my friends changing. My high school friends are drifting away, not all of them, but a lot of them. We're all changing into the people we want to be for the rest of our lives. In high school, I never felt like I was on the outside looking in. But in college I somehow feel more accepted. People are different there. And I definitely can't wait to go back. There's less drama and I like it.
Only one more week!!
Now that Christmas Break is almost over, I'm ready to go home. To the place where my best friend, Jill, understands my obsessions.
Where Becca will sit and have late night heart-to-hearts because she's been where I am.
Where Amy knows exactly what to say... and when she should be like a Grandma...
Where Nikki and Lauren are there to laugh.
Where Max can tell with one look exactly what I need him to do... walk, talk, text, make everyone leave me alone, let me go to bed, take us to Steak N Shake...
Where Nicholas, Bret, and Dakota know how to make me laugh so hard that I can't get food into my mouth.
College is a weird thing. It's a time full of change. I can feel my friends changing. My high school friends are drifting away, not all of them, but a lot of them. We're all changing into the people we want to be for the rest of our lives. In high school, I never felt like I was on the outside looking in. But in college I somehow feel more accepted. People are different there. And I definitely can't wait to go back. There's less drama and I like it.
Only one more week!!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
It's a gift and a curse
In the recent years I've realized that there is something about my personality that screams "Tell me everything! I'm a good listener!" Or something along those lines. Because it seems like every day or so someone comes up to me to either a) complain, b) tell me something I probably shouldn't know, c) ask me for advice, or d) tell me the latest piece of gossip.
It can be a gift, but it also can be a curse. The curse part comes in when people ask me to keep a secret or complain to me too much. It's not that I'm bad at keeping secrets, it's just that I have a hard time not laughing when people tell me something I already know when I'm supposed to be pretending like this is all new information.
What am I talking about???
Well let's take a super recent event - The Party - and apply it to my "gift" or whatever. By now, most people have probably heard one side about the party. But I may be one of a max of 5 people that know the other side too.
Let's start at the beginning. I found out about this party a couple weeks ago and I was a little irked to say the least. High schoolers can be real retards sometimes. And then the day of the party, yesterday, the host invited me (did he really think I would go?) and kept talking about it the whole time we were at frisbee. (There's a big mistake - don't talk about parties like that in front of a lot of people).
Anyways, the night of the party came and I was out babysitting. I couldn't believe how many people's facebook statuses were about the party and being excited to go. Well a crapload of people showed up, cars were lined all down the street, and people were getting as drunk as ever. (See, people love telling me every last detail). Then around 1030 I guess, the cops came and busted the party, sent kids home, and threatened to press charges against other kids. People were ratted out for things they didn't do, other people stepped forward and lied in order to get their friends saved, and some people ran.
That's the side of the story everyone knows...
The side most people don't know? I knew about the cops.... at 6pm. Four hours before they arrived, four hours before anyone had any knowledge of what was coming for them. Like I said, people just like telling me things. A friend of mine called me and told me of their plan to get it busted. And I didn't warn anyone. Why? Because it's about time they learned their lesson. I didn't want to give anyone the chance to get out and think they beat the system. Am I sorry for the innocent people who may get in trouble? Yes. But am I sorry in general? No.
I won't be telling anyone who called. Because it's really none of your business. Just learn your lesson and move on. No one in invincible. Not even "THE AE".
That's just one example of this gift thing I have. People tell me things before they happen all the time. And I sit laughing when I hear about them after. I guess I really am just your average Gossip Girl.
And one last thing, before you go accusing me of keeping quiet out of spite or revenge. Realize that you're not as great as you think you are. I would have done the same thing to anyone. I was praying, before I got that 6pm phone call, for the safety of everyone. And if this is God's way of keeping you guys safe, so be it. I'm not one to argue with the Creator of the Universe.
Peace out. See you in 2010.
It can be a gift, but it also can be a curse. The curse part comes in when people ask me to keep a secret or complain to me too much. It's not that I'm bad at keeping secrets, it's just that I have a hard time not laughing when people tell me something I already know when I'm supposed to be pretending like this is all new information.
What am I talking about???
Well let's take a super recent event - The Party - and apply it to my "gift" or whatever. By now, most people have probably heard one side about the party. But I may be one of a max of 5 people that know the other side too.
Let's start at the beginning. I found out about this party a couple weeks ago and I was a little irked to say the least. High schoolers can be real retards sometimes. And then the day of the party, yesterday, the host invited me (did he really think I would go?) and kept talking about it the whole time we were at frisbee. (There's a big mistake - don't talk about parties like that in front of a lot of people).
Anyways, the night of the party came and I was out babysitting. I couldn't believe how many people's facebook statuses were about the party and being excited to go. Well a crapload of people showed up, cars were lined all down the street, and people were getting as drunk as ever. (See, people love telling me every last detail). Then around 1030 I guess, the cops came and busted the party, sent kids home, and threatened to press charges against other kids. People were ratted out for things they didn't do, other people stepped forward and lied in order to get their friends saved, and some people ran.
That's the side of the story everyone knows...
The side most people don't know? I knew about the cops.... at 6pm. Four hours before they arrived, four hours before anyone had any knowledge of what was coming for them. Like I said, people just like telling me things. A friend of mine called me and told me of their plan to get it busted. And I didn't warn anyone. Why? Because it's about time they learned their lesson. I didn't want to give anyone the chance to get out and think they beat the system. Am I sorry for the innocent people who may get in trouble? Yes. But am I sorry in general? No.
I won't be telling anyone who called. Because it's really none of your business. Just learn your lesson and move on. No one in invincible. Not even "THE AE".
That's just one example of this gift thing I have. People tell me things before they happen all the time. And I sit laughing when I hear about them after. I guess I really am just your average Gossip Girl.
And one last thing, before you go accusing me of keeping quiet out of spite or revenge. Realize that you're not as great as you think you are. I would have done the same thing to anyone. I was praying, before I got that 6pm phone call, for the safety of everyone. And if this is God's way of keeping you guys safe, so be it. I'm not one to argue with the Creator of the Universe.
Peace out. See you in 2010.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Going with the theme
A 2009 Survey....
I decided to post this here. Mostly because I'm rather bored, but don't feel like talking to anyone.
JANUARY:
Where did you go on new year's?
- My house. For the annual festivities.
Who kissed you on new year's?
- No one. Besides mi familia of course.
Did you have a New Year's Resolution this year?
- Actually, yes. For the first time ever. This year I am planning on listening to my friends when they tell me something. Because they always end up being right.
Does it snow where you live?
- Once in the 6th grade... but generally not.
Do you like hot chocolate?
- Of course!!
FEBRUARY:
Who was your Valentine?
- Christopher, Dargan, Clare, and Mausam.
When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class?
- Yes, it was a requirement. But I paid careful attention to who got which card.
What did you receive for valentine's day?
- A homemade dinner from my best friend.
MARCH:
Are you irish?
- Indeed, 1/4.
What did you do for St Patrick's Day?
- Went to school?
Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
- We don't really have winter in Florida. As the Jonas Brothers say "It's always summertime"
APRIL
Do you like the rain?
- Not really
Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
- No
Do you celebrate 4/20?
- No, I don't. And I think it's ridiculous
Do you love the month of April?
- It's okay. But this coming year, it'll be fantastic.
MAY
What is your favorite flower?
- The expensive girl inside me shouts ROSES
Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day?
- Nope. I didn't even know that existed
JUNE
What year did/will you graduate from high school?
-2009. And I graduated in May, not June.
Did you do anything fun during this Month?
- I went to NSB with my best friends. And hung out with Adam, which was fun at the time.
JULY
What did you do on the 4th of July?
- Went to the Forbes' house
Did you go to the fireworks?
- Nope
AUGUST
Did you have a sunburn?
- Nope. I used sunscreen when I stole Alex's beach pass.
Did you go to the pool a lot?
- I have a pool, so no.
SEPTEMBER
Are you attending college/school?
- College.
Do you like fall better than summer?
- I think I will now.
OCTOBER
What was your favorite thing(s)about this month?
- Let's see.... swim meets, homecoming football games, marching band festival, family weekend. It was all good at the time.
What were you for Halloween?
- Nothing. I haven't done that since middle school.
What did you do for Halloween?
- Hung out with my mom/dad/brother.
NOVEMBER
Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
- This year, our house and Grandma's. Usually it's that or the Romer's.
What are you thankful for?
- My family, friends, and the love they give me.
DECEMBER
Do you celebrate Christmas?
- Yes, yes, yes.
Have you ever been kissed under the mistle toe?
- Never ever.
Get anything special last year?
- Last year? I don't remember that far back.
What do you want this year?
- This year I just wanted clothes. And a ticket to Germany. But you know...
What do you love most about December?
- Cooler weather, family, friends, and no school.
RANDOMS
How Many People Did You Claim as Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
- Throughout the year? I suppose 2. The other 2 never made it that far.
Did You Get Dumped This Year?
- Yeah.
Did You Accomplish Anything?
- Graduated high school and started college.
What was your NEW YEARS RESOLUTION for 2009?
- I didn't have one.
Did You Think This Year Was Slow?
- No, it went by super fast.
Are You Looking Forward for 2010? Why?
- Yes. I get to start again, wipe the slate clean, and forget the past.
Did You Learn Anything New?
- I learned to trust my friends. Because they always tell me what I need to hear, whether I want to or not.
Lost some friends?
- Sadly, yes. But we're trying to get back to where we were.
Made New Friends?
- Yep!! :)
I decided to post this here. Mostly because I'm rather bored, but don't feel like talking to anyone.
JANUARY:
Where did you go on new year's?
- My house. For the annual festivities.
Who kissed you on new year's?
- No one. Besides mi familia of course.
Did you have a New Year's Resolution this year?
- Actually, yes. For the first time ever. This year I am planning on listening to my friends when they tell me something. Because they always end up being right.
Does it snow where you live?
- Once in the 6th grade... but generally not.
Do you like hot chocolate?
- Of course!!
FEBRUARY:
Who was your Valentine?
- Christopher, Dargan, Clare, and Mausam.
When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class?
- Yes, it was a requirement. But I paid careful attention to who got which card.
What did you receive for valentine's day?
- A homemade dinner from my best friend.
MARCH:
Are you irish?
- Indeed, 1/4.
What did you do for St Patrick's Day?
- Went to school?
Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
- We don't really have winter in Florida. As the Jonas Brothers say "It's always summertime"
APRIL
Do you like the rain?
- Not really
Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
- No
Do you celebrate 4/20?
- No, I don't. And I think it's ridiculous
Do you love the month of April?
- It's okay. But this coming year, it'll be fantastic.
MAY
What is your favorite flower?
- The expensive girl inside me shouts ROSES
Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day?
- Nope. I didn't even know that existed
JUNE
What year did/will you graduate from high school?
-2009. And I graduated in May, not June.
Did you do anything fun during this Month?
- I went to NSB with my best friends. And hung out with Adam, which was fun at the time.
JULY
What did you do on the 4th of July?
- Went to the Forbes' house
Did you go to the fireworks?
- Nope
AUGUST
Did you have a sunburn?
- Nope. I used sunscreen when I stole Alex's beach pass.
Did you go to the pool a lot?
- I have a pool, so no.
SEPTEMBER
Are you attending college/school?
- College.
Do you like fall better than summer?
- I think I will now.
OCTOBER
What was your favorite thing(s)about this month?
- Let's see.... swim meets, homecoming football games, marching band festival, family weekend. It was all good at the time.
What were you for Halloween?
- Nothing. I haven't done that since middle school.
What did you do for Halloween?
- Hung out with my mom/dad/brother.
NOVEMBER
Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?
- This year, our house and Grandma's. Usually it's that or the Romer's.
What are you thankful for?
- My family, friends, and the love they give me.
DECEMBER
Do you celebrate Christmas?
- Yes, yes, yes.
Have you ever been kissed under the mistle toe?
- Never ever.
Get anything special last year?
- Last year? I don't remember that far back.
What do you want this year?
- This year I just wanted clothes. And a ticket to Germany. But you know...
What do you love most about December?
- Cooler weather, family, friends, and no school.
RANDOMS
How Many People Did You Claim as Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
- Throughout the year? I suppose 2. The other 2 never made it that far.
Did You Get Dumped This Year?
- Yeah.
Did You Accomplish Anything?
- Graduated high school and started college.
What was your NEW YEARS RESOLUTION for 2009?
- I didn't have one.
Did You Think This Year Was Slow?
- No, it went by super fast.
Are You Looking Forward for 2010? Why?
- Yes. I get to start again, wipe the slate clean, and forget the past.
Did You Learn Anything New?
- I learned to trust my friends. Because they always tell me what I need to hear, whether I want to or not.
Lost some friends?
- Sadly, yes. But we're trying to get back to where we were.
Made New Friends?
- Yep!! :)
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