I look at you and I see me,
Hopeful, fearless and carefree.
Not knowing what is coming up ahead,
But not really caring because you’re being led.
Led by the Savior who gave his life,
So you could live and worship Him as His loving wife.

I look at you and I see me,
Or at least the me I used to be.
I long to bring myself back there,
But sometimes I think that journey is more than I can bear.
I need your help, your knowledge, your love,
To help me get back to God Above.

I look at you and I see me,
The me of the future, the one I AM going to be.
Nothing can stop me from my goal,
Because God now has ownership of my soul.
In Him I triumph, I rejoice, I grow,
All because you never let me let go.

Part Drei and the Return

The last part of my Thanksgiving break went as follows....

Woke-up, went to Gma's house to visit Annabelle and her big sis. Annabelle is so adorable!! She's so tiny too. I went out onto the porch and played with the big sis for a while and then it was time for their naps, so they left and Mom and I ran some errands. After we got everything we needed, we went home and went to Beef's for lunch. I do love me some Beefs. :)

Then it was time to just chill and wait for J&J to come pick me up and take me back to school. I thought I was ready to go back, but my brain refuses to go back into school mode. I'm probably going to spend the rest of the semester drifting from class to class. But that's not necessarily a bad thing.

After we got back, we had to unpack all of our things and then chill. I was planning on going to bed early, but that didn't happen. I ended up talking to A-Wal on the phone for a while, which was really nice because I haven't had the chance to talk to him in a long long time. After that I sat on my bed and watched The Notebook. I'm pretty sure that was the first time I've ever watched the whole movie, start to finish, without breaking and it's definitely one of my favorites.
If you're a bird, I'm a bird. <3

That's all.

Thanksgiving Part Deux

I'm digging this cold weather and really wish it would last. But I've lived in Florida long enough to know better. It really makes me feel like it's Christmas.

Here's the happenings of the 2nd half of my break.

Friday - Call me crazy, but I enjoyed waking up a three a.m. Mom, Nicole, and I went to the Seminole mall and shopped from 430 until about 11 or so. We took a short break to eat breakfast, but other than that we were go, go, go. I scored a lot of cute clothes for NYC for really cheap and got a pair of Ugg-like shoes. We even knocked a few people off our Christmas lists. After shopping I took a short nap and then went to MI to see New Moon with Nicole, Britt, Lenny, and Ann. I was surprised with how much I liked the movie. But I couldn't help make a few comments during it, such as "CEDRIC! The Ministry lied!" and "When did Sharkboy get abs?" After the movie I went over to Moosams and hung out with Juanito, Bry-Bry, Kellers, and Bindos. We took a bunch of cute pictures, talked, and caught up.

Saturday - Mom woke me up at 10 and we went to see Ang and the boys. I've missed all of them sooo much!!! The boys were, of course, as cute as they were when I left them and just as sweet too. We played, watched tv, and ate lunch at Kelsey's. When we were leaving Carty gave me a huge bear hug and told me that he missed me "soooo much". I'm definitely glad that I only have a week and a half left of school. After Kelsey's Mom and I dropped some stuff off at Grandma's new house, I did some math homework and then I got to go to Mausam's again. The highlight of my week was definitely getting to call Christopher on the phone and talk to him and Felix even though they're all the way in Mochengladbach. I love love love Felix's broken English. It makes me laugh so hard. After we called Chris, we took a walk, took pics, and helped Moosam prepare for a wedding Garba. Then we had to leave so she could go. Saying bye was hard, but like I said... 1.5 weeks.
At home, I skyped with Chris and Felix again before watching some television and relaxing. That was the end of my Saturday.


Tomorrow I'm going over to Grandma's to finally meet like Annabelle. She's going to be absolutely adorable. Sometime late afternoon J&J are coming to take me back to college. Going back this time will be different than in the past because this time, I'm actually excited. Not that I won't miss my family or anything, it's just that I like it now. I've missed Ames, Jill, Becca, and the rest of the crew a lot and can't wait to catch up with them. But that doesn't mean I'm not already preparing for Christmas break.

Here are my plans for that so far:

10th - surprise my pre-k kids at their pageant
12th - Help with the pre-k float if Ro needs me
14th - Soccer game with Will, maybe I'll make some of the guys sandwiches just to mess with J. Barnes
17-20 - NYC with Momma and Dad
20 - White Elephant?

I'm ready to buckle down, take finals, and have a little fun!

Thanksgiving Break Part 1

I've been home for three days and I can barely remember what I've done so far. It's been great and I can't wait to get an entire month of this. The funny thing is, I'm missing college. Tuesday night I was talking to Jill and almost said "Hey, I'll meet you down in your room" or "What's Ames doing?" It's weird being away now that I like it so much. Here's what happened everyday since Moosam was complaining about not having a log.

Tuesday- Went to math, waited for J&J to finish class, drove home. The first thing I did when I walked in was eat. Boy have I missed good food. After eating, I unpacked my stuff, did laundry, and hung out with my mom. We watched tv like old times and then everyone went to bed. I stayed up talking to Dooger and Jill on fb chat until my eyelids started to droop.

Wednesday - I was woken up by a text from Will. We had been texting Tuesday trying to figure out what we'd do together. He had to go pick up his sister from her friend's house so I decided to go with him and hang out after. Little did I know, this friend lives in the creepiest house in Smallsville. It's surrounded by barbed wire and apparently serves as a mental clinic. I don't know why Will's mom let Laura go there. Needless to say, the doors were locked as soon as he left the car and weren't unlocked until his hand was on the handle. After picking Laura up, we grabbed some BK and went to his casa. Last time I was there he tricked me into watching Saw by telling me it was Spaceballs (he says it was Keegan's idea but I call bull). So he decided to make it up to me by actually watching Spaceballs. Soo funny.
Will's family had to leave to go be with family so I left and went out with Bethers. I picked her up, said hi to her familia, and then we went to Sunrise. I do love me some Strawberry Sunrise and I got a muffin to take back to school. We then went to Target and walked around.
After that Mom, Flander and I went to Sonny's and then Mom and I went to Dogs to see Mojo and her momma. I think we made the most noise they have ever heard, but it was sooo worth it.
Then I went to Moosam's house and hung out. We acted crazy, dressed up in winter clothes, and watched a Christmas movie. <3

Thursday aka Thanksgiving- I woke up early to watch the parade and was super excited to see BLG perform. Good choice people, good choice. Then Nana and Gidow came and we ate with them. After we got done eating I took a nap. Once I woke up it was time for dinner take 2 at Grandma's new abode.

Tomorrow morning I'm going Black Friday shopping so I think it's time for some shut eye. I have to be awake enough to beat up shoppers. :)

Patience is a virtue

As is not having your head in the clouds.

I have learned both of these things in the last few days. As well as learning not to doubt myself. I'm leaving right NOW to go home and I'm definitely excited. Hopefully I won't bump into people I don't want to see.

When creativity finally kicks in

Well the AMA's were definitely interesting. I can't say I'm sorry that I left early to go walking around town with Ames, Dakota, Nicholas, and Nikki. We walked through the square, around the fort, and down St. George street. Nikki wanted to take pics and we wanted something to do. The one productive thing that happened was finding Rubberband Alley. I was walking behind everyone else with Dakota and spotted a familiar looking alley, so I told Dakota to wait a second, crossed my fingers, and jumped. Sure enough I had found it!! Dakota looked at me like I was a freak so I made him jump too. Soon enough, Nicholas, Nikki, and Ames were in on it too. We were all jumping for a minute or two in the best alley in the whole world!! It sounds like someone is snapping a rubber band every time you land and no one really knows why.

After jumping, we went back to school and I went to bed.

Today I woke up and checked the blog for Visual Culture. To my surprise I found a new project and I'm actually pretty excited for it. We're supposed to take 3 pics that define our identity. I already have my pics planned out so I'll post them as soon as they get taken. We also had to pick 3 movies we identify with. I spent a good hour writing about why I identify with A Walk to Remember, Nick and Norah, and 10 Things I Hate About You. Some reasons were simple, some complex, but overall they were creative.

After that, I packed. I'm definitely ready to take a short break.

I hope things go well.

Later gators.

Saturday Night

I figured I can talk about last night now that I have a little time to.
I went to dinner with Jill, Ames, Nikki, Becca, Lauren, Dakota, Nicholas, and Maxwell (I love using his whole name). We all ate together in the nasty d-hall and then headed downtown for the Night of Lights. They played a lot of Christmas-y music which really got all of us in the holiday spirit. We took silly pics and then went back to school to hang out in the rotunda for a while. We all sat around in a big circle and talked, joked, and just had an all around good time. Soon it was time for the basketball game so Jill, Brett, Bob, and I went to the gym. We were super happy to discover that the game was free to all students. I didn't get as much into the game as I usually do, but it was still a good time. We ended up losing by 10, but played a pretty good game. Other than all of the missed free-throws and three-pointers. I think Brett was pretty impressed with my basketball knowledge although he was disappointed that I never stood up and yelled. Maybe because Max kept texting me and asking what was going on.
After the game, Jill and I went back to get coats and check on Becca, who had gone back to her room after the lights. We then met up with Ames and went out to the lawn to watch the rest of It's a Wonderful Life, which is definitely a super cute movie. We then went to the student center to chill/eat/play pingpong and pool. Max decided it'd be funny to steal my phone while I went to get food which I definitely didn't appreciate. Taught me never to leave my stuff with him. Oh well, after a while Jill and I decided to go back to her room. I went to check on Becca and that's when we had our heart-to-heart about stupid boys from al regions of the country. Then I slept.

Today I just read, did a devo, and watched some tv on the computers. Now I'm going to eat dinner and watch the AMAs with Jill.

See ya later losers.