Let's see... what has happened in the past few days?

Well, Wednesday I went with Ames and Callie to Starbucks to studying for our history test. We sat inside and went through the vocab until they closed at 9. (Who the heck closes at 9? This isn't Smallsville people!) After they closed, we went back to school and dropped Callie off. (She's a bit hyper at times but we still love her.) Then Ames and I went and met our friends at Bugg's. I met some really nice boys, Max and Brett (although Max insists that he hates me even though I never did anything to him). And Ames and I went through the rest of our vocab. By the time we finished it was like midnight, so we went back to our rooms and slept.

Thursday - I finally finished my shadowing hours in the writing center. Now I don't have to sit there and be bored every week. Later that night, J&J and I went to the Student Center for a while and then I met Ames at Cedar and studied a little more. They played Rock Band on the HUGE tv while I talked to Jill and tried to get my phone back from Max. (He decided that my phone was payment for the three twizzlers he gave me on his own. I didn't even ask for them). Anyways, at like 11 Jill decided that she was tired so I went back with her to our dorms. It's slightly dangerous to walk back from Cedar by yourself after dark, but I guess that's why they put the guys there and not girls. While I was in Cedar I got to FB chat with an old guy friend from home. It was a lot of fun getting back in touch with him and deciding which Smallsville High games the two of us and our lit/lang friends are going to go to when I get back for Christmas break.

Friday - Class... then my English group interviewed our subject and got a lot of our paper done. After class I had to go do my art project with my creative pod. I was really dreading it, but it turned out to be a lot of fun. I like being artist, I'm just not good at it. But having Lindsay and Corinna there to help me worked really well. We all finished pretty early and had to wait for Callie to cut out her people, so we decided to hide in the art supply closet and wait for her to come find us. We had some heart-to-heart conversations in the closet (sounds kinda weird when I put it like that) and ended up staying in there for about 20 minutes. Then we hung up our silhouettes and I went over to Jill's. The second I got there Ames and Nikki came in and asked if we wanted to go to Fernandina with them. I really really wanted to, but I knew I wouldn't get my homework done if I did. So they left, but not before Nikki informed me that she is FORCING me to go on the next roadtrip... Fine by me. Jill and I hung out in her room until I was too tired to keep my eyes open.

Things for today-
*Group English project (shouldn't take too long)*
*CLEAN! (I can't stand how messy our room is now)*
*Lighting ceremony with Jill, Ames, Becca, etc. (It'll feel like Christmas)*
*Boys' basketball (I can't wait to get crazy!!)*


I'm sorry if this is slightly boring to most people. I just like to think of it as a way to let people know what I'm up to even though we're not together. It makes me feel connected. I love everyone lots!!!

Conductor of the World

This is what happens when I'm feeling musical and spiritual at the same time.

Last night at Cru we watched a video full of music, violins, flutes, oboes, violas, cellos, piano, guitars, french horns, the works. The point was that everyone is playing a song in life, the question is whether or not they're in tune. Whether they do the right things or not.

I took it a step further in my brain. God is the Conductor of the song, the song of life. He's waving his arms, telling the players (mankind) when to be quiet, when to speak up, when to slow down or speed up, and when to stop. Just like in music class, individual players have the ability to pay attention or just not bother. Paying attention to the conductor takes effort, it's not easy to multitask in so many ways at once. Ears and eyes have to be open at all times and nothing can distract the player. God connects to this in every way. You (the player) can either pay attention to him or just walk away. If you choose to pay attention you have to be on it. You have to adjust every few steps you take and make sure you look to him and are doing what he wants. Without him standing at the conductor's stand, the world is in turmoil. No one knows what to play or how to play it. It's crazy and doesn't make any sense.

That's all I have about that.

About other things - Thanksgiving is in a few days and I can't wait to get home and see everyone. After that, I only have two and a half weeks left of class before Christmas Break. This makes me unbelievably happy.

- I have been hanging out with Amy and Jill a lot more lately... I decided that it's pointless to use code names for college friends that no one knows anyways.... Amy took me with her to see the meteor shower the other night and it was magnificent!! I saw three meteors shooting across the sky and it reminded me of the beauty this world contains.

- Tonight, I'm going to Starbucks with Ames and then we're studying for our last History test. I'm really going to miss our professor. He's fantastic!!

- Voldemort was that "best friend" from last post. I don't care at all anymore. Not that I have in the last month or so, but I just had to announce that for it to be done.

Today, I finally let go and realized that I lost a best friend. And I'm not all that upset about it. So it must be for the better.

A sigh of relief

This past week has been full of stress and watching the clock, but now that that's all over, I finally have time to breathe. College pre-registration week is the worst. You're expected to sit and wait patiently for your time to come, and for freshman, that time is Thursday at 7am (aka very last). If you know me at all, you know that I HATE having to wait and not knowing if my classes are going to work out. At Smallsville High, I never had to worry about that. I never took a class I didn't want because my guidance counselor knew better. She knew that I wasn't afraid to call her house late at night to get her to fix something. And as a result, I am not used to this crap.

So I woke up early, sat down at my laptop, and waited for 7 to roll around. I think pre-registration was a success, besides that stupid science class I didn't get into. But the funny thing is, I'm not that upset about it. I didn't want science anyways so this schedule will be easy peasy. Intro to Teaching, Electronic Portfolio, English, Psych, and Speech. And I managed to get a class with my friend, RI, so I'm super happy about that.

Speaking of RI, I've been hanging out with her and her friends a lot more lately and I love it. I think I've gone over there almost every day this week to hang out, talk, watch TV, or do whatever seems like fun. I really like them and get along with all of the people in their group. There's never a dull moment. I do believe I have finally found the college friends I was searching for. Things seem to be going my way these days.

I read a quote the other day that really got me thinking. "Don't regret anything that once made you happy." I've decided to try and live by that quote. And living by that means regretting nothing because everything I have done, whether this summer or otherwise, once made me smile. Not regretting doesn't mean not learning from mistakes, it just means not beating myself up over things that happened. You should try living by it too. It's pretty awesome. Just consider it.

Peace.

The difference a day makes

Yesterday was definitely amazing. Here's how it started....

My L.C. classes were supposed to go on a field trip to Jax to some plantation, so I woke up around 10, got ready, and went to meet Staten at the Bistro. We got there and realized that it was closed so we went over to the Auditorium to meet the bus. But when we got there, guess what wasn't there.... yep, the bus. We waited for a while and our art teacher finally decided to call the bus company. Turns out, our bus broke down on the way to get us and it would be another 20 minutes or so. So Staten and I went back to the Bistro and got wraps. It was her birthday, so I payed and then we went back. But our teachers decided it wasn't worth it so we canceled the trip. A group of girls decided to go anyways so Staten and I joined them since our friends were going to be gone anyways. So we went, took pictures, girl-talked, ate at Chickfil-a, got donuts, and headed back.

Once we got back, Staten and I caught up with her friends Mendez and Seem. After a lot of discussion and drama and changing plans they all finally decided that they were going to go to Jax to a Moe's and decide from there what came next. Seem had invited me to go earlier in the week but I wasn't sure if that invite still stood so I went to get my stuff and go, but Mendez and Staten reinvited me so I went.

It was a lot of fun. A bunch of us piled in Law's Suburban and drove. More drama insued, but that's what makes nights interesting. Law wanted to go camping on the beach and get uber wasted, but no one else wanted to go and since it was Staten's birthday, we defended her and finally Law let up and stopped asking. He and his friends went anyway, but we all went back and chilled in Cedar. Less drama occured once he left and we discussed what to do next. Staten had promised Ri that she would go do the usual stuff 18 year olds are legal to do and Ri wouldn't let her forget that promise. Flower and I didn't really want to go so we had a sleepover and watched SNL while they did that. When they got back they decided to have an impromtu road trip to Hilton Head. Since we don't have a van and Law was gone Flowers and I sacrificed ourselves so everyone else could go and have a good time.

We had a sleepover which was a lot of fun. :) And now I'm dead tired, sitting in my pjs at the computer back in my room.

I declare this weekend a success.

Family Weekend and such

This weekend was family weekend at college. Parents are invited to come spend the weekend here and see what the college is like. They eat in the dining hall (which served good-ish food for a change), hear Prez A talk, take a trolley tour, see the dorms, and get to catch up with their kids.

My parentals got here Friday when I was still in class taking a test (which I got a 98 on). So they checked into their B&B and waited for me to be done. Once I got out they came over, showed me their place, and we went to eat at a Columbian restaurant (not as good as I remembered). After eating we went to WallyWorld for a few quick things and then went to watch Where The Wild Things Are. It was definitely... different to say the least. I didn't really remember the book at the time so I don't have much else to say about that.

Saturday morn, me and Cal (who's parents were also staying at the B&B) walked over to get breakfast. It was AMAZING! After that we went over to the auditorium to listen to the President give his speech and here the choir sing. It reminded me of how much I miss music.... After the speech Mom and I walked around while Dad watched the FSU game. I got a super cute purse! (Thanks Mom and Mrs F) Mom and I also went on a trolley tour of the town, which I think she really enjoyed. Then Dad went to watch the UF/UGA game and Mom and I drove over to the outlets. I "made out like a bandit" as Mom says. Lots of cute clothes for NYC. After the game, we went to a Greek restaurant and walked around Downtown.

Sunday was a peculiar day. I woke up, got ready, and ate breakfast at the B&B. Then Dad, Mom, and I drove out to see the beach. On the way back we stopped by Publix to pick up some food I wanted for my dorm. Then they decided to take me home for a few hours and have J&J take me back to school with them. I was really upset when I had to go/ had to think about going. But I think (keyword "think") I'm okay now.

When I got back I studied with my friend Staten. We did more talking than we did studying, but I think that's okay. I think she really helped me realize I'm not alone here and I can find friends. We talked about the kinds of people here and how we're nothing like them. We don't party al the time nor are we major dorks. We're the inbetweeners. More mature than most, which is what is getting the both of us stuck when trying to find new friends. Talking with Staten made me feel a lot better and more confident that I will find friends. After studying she invited me to get coffee and then go back to her room and hang out with her and her suitemates. I had a great night in spite of my crappy day. And tomorrow, I'm actually going to eat lunch with her and her suitemates!! I have real friends. And the fact that that amazes me, is a little sad. But oh well, I take what I can nowadays.

I've found a better day. Not a perfect one, but better.

• We got "boo'd" aka someone gave us a big bag of candy.

• I went to math, which was boring as usual. But I do love Prof. Nickles.

• Went to lunch with J&J and ate some yummy chimichangas.

• V and I went to the writing center and I helped a foreign girl fix her English. It reminded me of all the little grammatical mistakes the Germans used to make. And she really appreciated my understanding.

• Then I had to go watch two stupid ASL videos. I really hate those movies.

• Went to A&J's room to borrow their vac. We just sat there and talked for a while which was really good because it reminded me that I do have friends other than B J&J here.

• SOON I'm going to the G's house to carve pumpkins!!!! I can't wait to see how big the baby is.