I wish you knew how much it hurts when you shove things like this in my face. It's not that I don't want you to be happy, because I do. It's just that I wish I could have that kind of happiness before you do. I wish you understood why I feel like this. I wish you understood why I get so mad at you all the time. I wish we could be friends again, just friends. But that's never going to happen.

But most of all, I wish I could rewind the clock and go back to the summer where it all changed. I would not have to change much. Just one day here and one day there. They say what doesn't kill you will make you stronger, but I have yet to see that. Because it's killing me inside and I'm not getting any stronger.




"I wonder if there will ever be a day where I forget all about you. And I wonder if when that day comes, I'll be happier or just heartbroken."

Once upon a time words never hurt me, change never killed me, love never broke me, fear never shook me, and my hopes never faded. I never broke down and I was always happy. Once upon a time... I'm ready to be the girl I was. The one who never cried, never worried about love, and never got mad at stupid things.

Once upon a time I was warned and once upon a time I promised myself that I would listen to those warnings. Oops.



Okay, I'm done. That's the last time I'll dedicate a post to this. I give you permission to smack me if I ever do this again. Seriously.