I told my parents and my friend Rachael about my debate (because they need to know, and she's been there before). So now I have some good support and people to talk to. I also started taking the necessary steps towards deciding what I want to do..... Pro/Con lists, E-mailing transfer services at the U, Starting an application (I can always tell them I changed my mind), figuring out what would transfer and what wouldn't, etc.
I also told my h.s. friends about it too. They always give me a hard time about not ever telling them anything, and I figured I need their help too, so why not?
The weird thing is, I've been slightly happier today and yesterday. But I don't know if that's because I know I have a way out, or because I really am happy. I guess I'll never really know.
It's really hard knowing what to do. Because it's hard to imagine exactly what it would be like if I did leave. I know I'll miss my friends like crazy. But is not wanting missing my friends enough to make me stay and maybe be unhappy?? I guess I'll figure it out in time.
On a side note: Babysitting was fun. BuG has gotten a LOT bigger since the last time I saw him. He's getting ready to crawl!! I think he's teething though, so he was very fussy. After he went to bed, Paul and I watched Tropic Thunder, the Hangover, and some of The Venture Brothers.... that's what happens when people don't get back til 2am.
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