Small Victories

I'm counting the small victories and steps I make in life now to get by. Things like not breaking down when Mom and Dad dropped me off after dinner last night and not crying in bed when I finally went to sleep. The less times I break down each day, the closer I am to figuring out what I want to do.

As I was straightening my hair this morning, I remembered my favorite Bible verse. (Yes, I always think about deep things when I'm getting ready.) It just popped into my head, and by that, I mean God reminded me because I've been asking Him for guidance the past few days. So, after I was done I walked over to my desk, grabbed my Bible and read. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you." (Jeremiah 29 11-12) This just reminds me that God is looking out for me and knows how I've been feeling. He knows that I can get through it and there is hope and I do have a future. The hardest part of those verses to grasp is that He knows the plans, I don't. I don't know where He's going to take me or what He wants me to do. I just have to remember that He has it all worked out and I just have to sit back, pray, and trust.

I think the above thoughts count as a bigger victory. Not that because I read that I'm suddenly going to be better. But because when I do start doubting myself, I just have to come back and read it.

I have so much to think about this weekend when I return home, but I know I won't be alone. When I need help I have a billion people I can call, and that right there is a HUGE blessing. I'm thankful for all of my friends who have always been there for me and always will be. I don't know where I'd be without them. They'll be the ones that help me reach my next small victories. Little steps at a time. One by one, I'll get there.